Elegantly Random: This is why I move. - Physically Insane
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(to visit the original article click here)Of course, those are just the sort of surface-skimming, cop-out answers a person normally shares. But if I'm being really honest, it goes so much deeper. The reality is, change doesn't come easily to me. Ask my mother - I've never dealt well with major life change - it makes me Physically ill and mentally crazy. Whether it's a move or the end of a friendship or a new romance or even just an adjustment to my schedule, I worry and fret and make myself insane over it and then I worry some more. It's part of my type-A personality - but here's the weirdest part of all - I crave it. I need that change every once in a while, even though it makes me bonkers. I think, on some level, because I don't do changes very well, I sometimes have to force myself and it's easier to do it in a big way than to take baby steps. Case in point - my job. I needed something new, but I can always find a reason not to do it - it's not more money, the tasks are the same, it's in a bad part of town - all excuses. The truth is, changing jobs is hard. And though it may sound nuts, it's easier for me to force it on a big scale - if I'm leaving town, then I HAVE to get a new job. It's no longer an option to wait for the perfect thing here in Charlotte...which may take me years to find.
